The year of the 30's...written: May 18, 2007

A close friend just turned 30. She and I...along with another close friend...had dinner last week. We began to talk about the ridiculous question that swirls around you at this 'life juncture', "Are you where you thought you would be?" (...don't ask her this question...she might hit you...)

The question seems odd to me. Annoying...and odd. I'm not sure I thought about where...or who...I would be when I turned thirty. And what good does it do, really...to ponder this question? It changes nothing...and what if I'm not where I thought I would be? Then what? A big margarita...that's what...

Our conversation wandered to, "If you did nothing that you had done, what would you do?" What would you do? If I hadn't moved to San Antonio, I would have stayed in New Jersey...stayed involved in theatre...and maybe made it to Broadway. If and hadn't done this thing or that thing...what then?

Who would I be? Who would I have known and loved? Would I have been loved...and by whom? Would I know peace and happiness? Would I have this simple life I now love?

Kind of makes me think...kind of makes me wonder...kind of makes me thankful for all the twists and turns that have made up me.

And, please, when a girl's about to turn thirty (which a lot of us will do...all too soon)...just let her do it...don't make her think about it...
She's much happier that way.